Well, someone call me a thief today and I got really pissed about that because I felt it like an embarrassment or very offended. But I thought about it and more I thought I felt like it is right because I steal something from someone and it is not belong to me. I didn’t realize what I was doing, I posted those art work when I was bit upset and feeling down. May be what I want was just make me happy by presenting something which is not mine. Also it help my ego to recover from the stress or emotional mambo jumbo I’m going through.
Whatever the case is I enjoyed it for a while, but it got backfired and someone find out it was stolen. He was happy reveal that to all world that it is not mine, again it make me upset because here is the guy who is telling the truth and here I’m trying to prove that he is lying. If keep on going then after few exchange of rude comment then I’ll ended up lying to myself. So I deicide to take that out and respect the work, I’m sure he don’t know me and what I’m but what make thing more complicate is that it also put my true work into steal property. Because if your thief or liar then for other’s your always a liar they never see what is inside you.
I started this as a time pass and more I spend time with it I realize I’m getting serious about it. But this serious make me sick and I lost my touch with inner self were I used to enjoy working on something for day’s without getting bored. When I got serious my ego take over my mind and work on being better. And there was the problem and finally I’m able to narrow it down what I was missing.
Anyway people do things for time pass or piss someone off or just for fun, well sometimes it have some serious impact. May be it is true that I’m just full of crap and all I’m saying is bullshit whatever the case is I realize a fact which I want to share with you. Forget about what other’s saying the movement you look at other’s and compare with yourself you started losing the touch with yourself and when you loose that you ended up loosing everything you have. You can lie, you can do whatever fuck you want to do but never lose what is inside you, some people like it or someone say it is crap but who care’s!!!? After all you do this for yourself and your own satisfactions as long you have that you will be happy!
(Now it seem to me I don’t know where I have to start or what I’m but I enjoy this uncertainty because this uncertainty have endless possibility of becoming something which you want, anyway I’m still mad with the guy who dare to speak the truth but let say it is just the fucking ego and when I get pissed off something else I’ll get over it lol and no one say this journal is someone else idea haha)